Hi guys
Sorry to dredge this up again but kinda helps.
Been trying to work but my brain is fried half the time and in constant pain from abdomen and muscle pain.
I've had ct scans and a spinal mri and bloods done but they have no idea what's wrong with me.
Saturday all I did was drive 24 miles to shops and back and spent all of yesterday and Sunday in bed at one point Monday was screaming in pain.
Just got back from gp and now been prescribed antidepressants on top of everything else and referred to mental health.
Just at my wits end been like this since October and there's just no end in sight.
Last week I took a large quantity of dihydrocodeine hoping to end it all, obviously didn't take enough.
If I were an animal no one would let me suffer like this.
Just being in this state is killing me by inches anyway.
I probably shouldn't be writing this but I dunno kind of helps for awhile.
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Rich, if you're at the point of attempting suicide, you MUST seek help straight away, it must make them see that they have to do something!
Please take care and try to stay calm! I can assure you, the thoughts and wishes of this whole site are with you! Stay strong!

Hi Rich,
Sounds like a dreadful experience your going through.
If you need any practical help I can lend a hand dependant on location? Like lifts to hospital or anything?
I know it can be hard to accept the help of a stranger but the offer nonetheless is there.
Hope things improve and hang on in there, things WILL get better.
