We're all hostage to our past but some are held in nastier prisons, yet you are not your past! Like Scrooge being shown his past life try to look for the better you and keep hold of him. Writing about it can help sort out things and help put your past behind you once and for all.I've seeked help despite being in denial I now realise if I keep my life going the way I am I'll die at a very young age and not see my lads grow up. I have inner demons to do with my childhood that I find impossible to shake off and I dream every night of being a kid in this situation.
When I wake up I'm full of rage and literally want to hurt and take my frustration out on people. I cant live like this anymore, all either seriously hurt someone or myself and my lads dont deserve that
Remember, the sabbath was made for man, not man for the sabbath. Christmas is just the day upon which we chose to celebrate, so your Christmas can be any day with your boys that you want. Some countries open presents on Christmas eve, some not until Epiphany on Jan 6th, then again you could always choose to celebrate as per the orthodox calendar and have Christmas on Jan 7th!
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