I'm surprisingly calm after that.
Almost certainly because I fully accepted relegation over the international break. It is my default assumption that it will happen, so if it doesn't I will see that outcome as a massive and unexpected bonus.
It's in moments like this that everything that can go against you, will. Bonkers refereeing decisions, individual mistakes, everything is so costly.
But it is important to focus on the bigger picture. The season started today. Forget the previous 32 games. They came under useless managers stripped of key players through injury.
Next week is a must win, and it needs to be a massive, convincing win. Not just a win that notches up 3 points, but a win that also provides a boost of confidence.
The trip to Villa Park will be bloody tough, but we'll possibly have Maddison back in the team by then which will be a massive boost. And they'll have more than one eye on their game against Forest. Win that and they've basically won the EL which Emery loves and let's be honest would be huge for them, even in the highly unlikely event they drop out of the top 5 as a result... they'll get CL football via that trophy anyway.
Then we have Leeds at home who are essentially safe.
It could all look very, very different in three games' time.
And the only reason I'm able to be this optimistic is because I have fully resigned myself to the fact that we are going to be relegated and it will happen at Stamford Bridge via a 97th minute Connor Gallagher own goal
