You need CBT as a matter of urgency mate. You shouldn't have to live life this way and it not normal. How far have you got with the system?
I had CBT about 10-15 years back but it didnt really help me. I sorted myself out about 8-9 years ago, some strange reason i just stopped being as anxious and i was happy. At the time had 'grown up' things on my mind, didnt have time to worry about myself. But about 2 years ago I had a health anxiety attack where I convinced myself I had a growth in my throat (pesky globus hystericus!!!) and I've been struggling off and on since. Feel fine at the mo but i know my next bout could be just around the corner.