I had CBT about 10-15 years back but it didnt really help me. I sorted myself out about 8-9 years ago, some strange reason i just stopped being as anxious and i was happy. At the time had 'grown up' things on my mind, didnt have time to worry about myself. But about 2 years ago I had a health anxiety attack where I convinced myself I had a growth in my throat (pesky globus hystericus!!!) and I've been struggling off and on since. Feel fine at the mo but i know my next bout could be just around the corner.
Sounds horrible, I've had stages of 'over worry' but nothing as severe as you're describing. If anything i'm usually the opposite, wishing for a heart attack to take me away from it all.
It's not nice but the fastest way to get there is the stress you're putting on yourself. But you know this already, it's not recognising the problem, it's fixing it init. Changing negative behaviors which occur in the mind is so hard. Shame CBT didn't work for you. What do you do to cope? Or does it naturally subside into settled periods?
I'm on Venlifaxine. I'm not anyway near as bad as I was in my 20's. That was a constant hell, at the moment I'm up and down which is a result considering how bad i used to be.
So sorry to hear that mate and that comes from somebody who doesn’t worry about f uck all I just ignore everything and crack on.
It seems to me that you have a hell of a lot going for you, which beggars belief of your problem. Are you taking any medication for whatever reason that could account for it ? From what you say I am sure that there is someone that could put you on the right track and fill in the little bit of the puzzle that is missing Good Luck, and keep punching
I'll second that! I only ever once got to any state of depression and that was after my divorce was finalised. The divorce itself was very amicable but it was that "stamp" on it that made me think and pushed me very close - I worked through it with a lot of help from family and the NHS (My GP was fantastic for me) I came out the other side and everything is great now and (touch wood) Was very close to a guy who suffered some terrible mental health issues and took his own life a couple of years ago. Sad thing is he'd tried numerous times and failed and we'd tried to get him sectioned as we thought this may happen - this occasion the NHS were useless and provided minimal support and now the lad is not with us. ONe of the best guitarists I knew
You needed stabilising while you healed. Quite an easy fix treatment wise, as you say, it was your only occurrence, people chemical imbalances or deeply rooted trauma's carried from childhood or adult abuse and what not need more than short-term stabilization, that's unfortunately where the NHS falls flat on their face. Long term care and treatment. Between the NHS and Social Services it's a mess. It's from rolling governments failure to see it as an emerging problem so hasn't bothered with research or funding.
Thanks mate, I appreciate the kind words. No, no medication. I tried some last year when I was going through my medication, but they had too many side affects so I just stopped taken them.
Learning to adapt to not living with my boys on a full time basis hit me hard early last year when I went through my separation, and I struggled to cope when it was my ex's time to have them. It still find it hard now a year later not being able to live with them on a daily basis, and I think that plays a big part in me feeling so low sometimes.
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