Loner Scared Winner Loner because I don’t surround myself in big groups of people. I’m fine and even prefer doing a lot of things by myself. Holidays etc. I have something that goes on in my brain which tells me not to be a burden on people and it keeps me from getting close to pretty much everyone and when I do things by myself, I can’t get in the way of anyone. Scared because that’s what I am a lot of the time, now. Since I lost all of my older family, I regularly have moments of panic about ‘what if something goes wrong, who’s there to catch me or support me’, I’m fairly comfortable in life but I don’t think that matters. It’s always there ‘what if there comes a time where I’ve spent all my money and don’t have anything, I’d be ****ed’. I can’t switch that off. I do recognise it’s probably just a normal thought for someone in my position. Winner because fortunately that’s what I am. I’ve got something inside me which keeps pushing to make me do well in whatever I’m doing. Work, Sport and even daft things like going after women. I always seem to succeed and to make things work in my favour.
Can relate to all these things id say I’m a loner too but I don’t feel alone in the perceived way in society , I feel free and find that it helps me achieve my ultimate goal of finding inner peace. On a human to human level I don’t feel alone, I have children and I have no issue getting a partner etc etc. I can tell people to **** off and leave me be if required and I’m happy to decline social gatherings. I think being alone is essential for growth, that’s when we grow, when it’s me, the mirror and my soul. I enjoy activities like reading, meditating, contemplating and just striving to feed my soul. Content…I’m not easily wowed by materialism, I’m very happy with little, I don’t compete with others. Once again this is a vital cog in finding inner peace and something I tackle full on through life Strong…not in the physical sense which is a base level strength but from within so I can tackle many issues and keep my dignity be it people, financial or any other woes we face in life and death I wasn’t born with these traits I’ve just ducked and weaved my way through life and it’s bullshit, falling many times, till I realised these are the real goals of a good life for me because these are linked to mindset which is linked to soul The journey goes on…
Ive been called arrogant but I’ve always had to re address that by stating that what you see as arrogance is my strength to keep knobheads and their mentalities away from me and my peace im happy to tell people to **** off to cut a long story short unless they can prove me wrong logically through critical analysis not through emotional bullshit and that includes friends and family
Paternal Resilient Opinionated Paternal - my 3 girls are the most important things in my life and have been ever since the first came along. My missus is very similar in that - which I believe helps in our relationship when things get tough. Resilient - lost my old man quite early in life - had his first heart attack when I was13 - died from a massive one when I was 19 - he was just 49. Last death of 3 (Uncle, Grandma and the Old Man) in a 3 month period in 1979. Later same year learnt I had to have a pretty big knee op (January 1980) that ended any pro footie aspirations; tough at only 19 and at Uni. No question that all of the above toughened me up and shaped my lifetime attitude to 'hard work', health, responsibility - but also a determination to make the most of life. Quadruple heart by-pass at 57 hasn't really changed any of that. Opinionated - no expansion needed!
What is this ****, ****ing therapy? Luv will be asking us about our relationship with our parents next or asking us to use a feelings wheel.
Good point brh there’s more to this salt in the fridge story than Luv has let on definitely some Monk **** Buddhist salt therapy thing well spotted
