Depression...

Beehive yourself Tel

 

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Spot on Tel.

 

I think you are referring to the Sunderland Board Tel.

 

So granddad then?

 

Yeah.

 

Today is ****ing tough. I'm tying up the loose ends of folding the business and I've pulled the website, 10 minutes ago. I always feared this day would come, the business was doing well but my mental health, not so much. I've gone to work for 20 years and battled against the doctors advice not to work, but the moment has finally come where I've hit a brick wall and I simply need to take time away from everything. The pressure of life has become too much.

I won't claim benefits, I never have so I want to get that in before people try and push that my way and accuse me of doing so. I made enough money from the business and what I got from my Mam and Nana passing away recently to see me alright while I'm out of work. I'm guessing the time I'll need away from employment to recharge my batteries, will be about 12-18 months. They've got me on Quetiapine which is an anti-psychosis med, which should tell you where I'm currently at in life. I've put a dartboard up on the landing and I'm currently just banging away at that a few hours a day to occupy my mind. It's tough not going to work, any help on what I can do to occupy my time wouldn't go amiss.

 

I'm no expert Saffy, but anything that will get you off the meds as soon as, is worth looking at and something to aim for. From my limited experience, whilst it can be a necessary good, in the long run the meds themselves have changed friends and work colleagues I know.

Btw I'm NOT saying don't take them, but imo long term counselling from a qualified professional and/or social support groups etc aren't quick fixes but last longer. Anyway that's my tuppence worth. All the best mate

 

Just take it easy for a while buddy ... if you have the money take a hol

 

Thanks, mate. I get the sentiments and agree with you, too.

I don't usually take tablets because I know the toll that they have on the body. However, I think treating psychosis is different and if I'm not treated in the correct way I can be very unpredictable and talking therapies won't help me when I'm like this. Once my behaviour starts to subside I always ask the doctors to start weaning me off, asap.

 

Cheers, Fosse. You're always there in situations like this and I do notice and appreciate it.

I'll be fine, I just need to get through this...

 

Try not to shut down and become reclusive mate, the urge might be there to take the pressure of a stressful life off and completely stop, but too much time on your own can make the situation much worse in my experience.

You’ve got a vivid imagination judging by what you come up with on here so maybe try something new that’s creative, such as new product development perhaps with Cannabis if that’s your passion at the minute.

Lastly, trust the medical guys who are trying to help you, they may not seem to have all the answers first time but this stuff is all trial and error, if you persevere they’ll get it right.

Good luck bro, you know where ima be.

 

So sorry to read this tonight, you have certainly had to fight your way through life but for all the years I have known you on forums, you have always been one of the most upfront and honest people you could come across. I'm no good for you on this through my own situation but a very missed and close friend to me was, so all I can say is remember his words of inner strength and positivity. You are a sound lad Saf and loved by many. Take care my good man..

 

Thanks, lads. You two are ****ing diamonds.

I've spent time today dividing my garden up into sections, so it's pretty much a makeshift allotment. I've always enjoyed the idea of being as self sufficient as possible. I'll be growing my own fruit and veg now. I've already got a big Apple tree at the back which gives me about 100 good apples, every year. Plenty of stew and apple crumble moving forward haha. My mate has chickens at his allotment and he trades in them believe it or not

I don't eat a lot of meat now, but he said once I'm harvesting the veg if I want meat he'll bring me a chicken down so I can skin it myself to make sure the meats good. I'm very wary of eating meat from supermarkets. It's full of ****e.

This will do for now and summer is coming up so I guess I'll just enjoy that and not even think about work. Once that's over I can think about what I want to do job wise. It will probably be something cannabis related as that's my passion and what I know inside out.

I'll see, though.

Take care lads. You're the best... x

 

Sorry to hear that mate, but at least you don’t have to worry about money, so you can take some time for yourself.

 

You go for it bro, you have cheered me up many a time over the years as an observer on here after a hard day.. Remember you are one in a million too and very well respected..

Now go and kick some arses you Tory twat..

Love ya dude x

 

Head on over to the food thread if you need help with that Apple crumble bro, that’s if you don’t mind hash brown and black pudding in it, obviously.

 

farming and returning to the way of a simple life will be good for your soul saffy.

get well soon

 

Thanks, mate.

Fosse mentioned a holiday. It's a great idea but I would need the ok from the crisis team. I'll just see the summer through and then get away when the winter kicks in.

Cheers, Tobes

 

Bobby ma man. Yes, mate. I'm stripping everything back and trying to release all the stress. I've got an appointment with the specialist about my heart again, next week and I'll find out then if they're operating or not. I don't care, I just want the nod to allow me to start training properly, again. At the moment, I'm running around the village which takes 5 minutes but that's all I can do. Training and boxing makes me happy so hopefully I can throw myself back into that soon.

Have a good one, mate