please log in to view this image A BLOG Courtesy of the Telegraph (written shortly after a certain game at Loftus Rd last season) So what goes on in the mercurial mind of Adel Taarabt when he is out on the football pitch? âBefore I get the ball, I know whatâs going on,â he says. âSo when I receive it, I know someone is âonâ and I can pass it. I know already if Iâm going to shoot or turn or dribble. I know that before I get the ball. I know exactly what Iâm going to do and I feel very calm. All the time I feel calm when I have the ball. In football itâs important that your first touch is good because, then, nothing bad can happen to you.â Calmness has not always been a quality associated with Taarabt, whose career has, at times, been as volatile as the club he now plays for â Queens Park Rangers. He has played under eight managers at Loftus Road and, aged just 23 and having joined less than four years ago, he is now the longest serving first-team player. There is more. Taarabt has often divided opinion, and drawn some colourful and bold descriptions and comparisons â from Zinedine Zidane to Paolo Di Canio. Genius or fruitcake (Harry Redknapp has called Taarabt both)? wizard (as Martin Jol declared him) or simply not up to it (as Juande Ramos flatly observed before refusing to give him a squad number)? No one has doubted the Moroccanâs ability but several have seriously doubted whether they â or he â can properly harness it. Taarabt himself is clear â even if he looks momentarily confused when reminded that Redknapp, when he was Tottenham Hotspur manager, labelled him a âcomplete fruitcakeâ as a teenager at White Hart Lane. âWhatâs a fruitcake?â Taarabt says. âAh, Iâve got a strong character and if Iâm not happy, I say things. Maybe some other players will keep it to themselves. âBut me, I donât like injustice. If I see something thatâs not good â with a manager or a player â I tell them. I canât just say âOK, tomorrow is another day, I will leave itâ. Iâd rather have it out there, face-to-face. Itâs simple.â Taarabt has already had âface-to-faceâ conversations with Redknapp, now in charge at QPR, and a man he deeply admires, just as he calls his predecessor, Mark Hughes, âa great managerâ. He has something that not a lot of managers have,â Taarabt says of Redknapp. âA lot of managers can organise the team and so on but Harry wants a player to feel he is the best.â Taarabt gives a simple example â before last weekendâs 2-1 victory at home to Fulham, QPRâs first win of the season in the Premier League, at the 17th attempt. Taarabt scored both goals. âHe came to see me and said, âI think youâve nothing to learn from Berbatov because I think you can be better than himâ. âSo Iâm thinking, âIf he thinks that then Iâm going to show him heâs right and that I am betterâ. And this is Harry. He will tell you, âI wonât change you for anyoneâ. And not just me. Heâs said the same to the other players and when a manager says this to you and you go on the pitch you want to show him he was right. I saw it at Tottenham also. Modric was there and Juande Ramos didnât play him. We played at Stoke and Luka was put on the floor. He wanted a free kick and Ramos turned and said, âHeâs not a player for English footballâ. Harry arrived and just said âfantastic playerâ. And after that Luka, game after game, wow.â Taarabt also has that âwowâ factor, which was honed on the streets from the age of four. Born in Morocco, his family moved to Berre-lâEtang near Marseille in the south of France as his father, a builder, pursued work. âI didnât learn my skills in a football academy,â he says. âThey taught me to turn this way, that way, control. But they didnât teach me step-overs, nutmegs. They were natural. They came from God, I think.â Balls were improvised, scrounged â and sometimes stolen. Taarabt and his friends would stand outside the wall of the local football club and any wayward shot meant a ball was lost â and taken to the nearby high rises where the boys played four v four day after day. âFive or six teams, three goals and you stayed on,â Taarabt says. âYou hated to lose. When you went out you knew it would be 20, 30 minutes before you played again. You would go crazy.â From Lens, his first club, he went to Spurs in January 2007. There, after Jol and Ramos, Redknapp encouraged Taarabt to go on loan to QPR, who he helped finally raise from the Championship and save from relegation last season. The situation had appeared dire â and although it appears even more perilous this campaign, Taarabt says he would not swap the scenarios. âLast year with the last 10 games you saw the teams we were going to play, Liverpool, Arsenal, Tottenham, Manchester City, and everyone thought âno chanceâ. But now we have more than 20 games left and I prefer that,â he says, drawing hope from last weekendâs win. Taarabt explains what that victory felt like â and the frustration at the teamâs mistakes this campaign. âYou are playing, lose a goal and then you are watching the time â 75 minutes, 80 minutes and, ah, itâs hard,â he says. âWhen you are winning 1-0 you control the game, you are calm.â That run of matches without a victory added to the pressure he felt to make a difference. âEveryone is waiting for you to do something but itâs not easy to go past three or four players and score,â Taarabt says. âAnd sometimes itâs not âonâ and you should not do it but you try to do it because you are thinking âbut I have to do somethingâ. âIt means you end up âforcingâ your game and you should never do that.â That, he says, is changing. Maturity means he is more aware of when and when not to run with the ball. âI think Iâve improved a lot,â Taarabt says. âWhen I was 17 it was dribble, dribble, dribble. Now Iâm mixing it much more. I think Iâve improved a lot and thatâs normal. Iâm getting older.â