...............describe yourself in just one word what would it be? If I'm being honest (and I am going to be honest) the word I would choose for me would be "complicated"
Reminds me of a "Nobby's Piles" panel in the Viz - he stuck his arse n balls in a river to calm them down just to get bitten on the sigmunds by a pike
velleity   noun, plural velleities 1. volition in its weakest form. 2. a mere wish, unaccompanied by an effort to obtain it.