North London Derby day is a bastard of epic proportions. Way worseOF ALL than v chelsea or west ham imo I feel nervous from the minute our final match immediately before has ended. I bounce between optimism and doom for the days preceding and then the night before I start to feel queasy When I wake on the day of the match I find it hard to swallow, cant think about other things but hate thinking about the match If I am at the game I can watch it ... if I am in a football pub I can watch but if I am at home I watch from behind my hands like its a horror film, and if its on the radio I can only listen for a score update and then have to turn it off. If we draw ... I sign and forget about the stress, if we win I ****ING LUV IT, JUST LUV IT, but losing makes me wanna buy a cat to kick. I am very chilled a vast majority of the time ... but after a loss I am like a hormonal 16 yr old... the world is against me, no one understands and it aint fair. I dont want my kids repeating my words of wisdom to them..."winning is not everything" will come out of my 11 yr old daughters mouth in a really kind way..."sorry you lost dad but there is always next time" will follow...I struggle to give her a weak smile while my insides are screaming..."NEXT ****ING TIME...**** NEXT TIME...NOW IS WOT ****ING MATTERS...ARE YOU ON A ****ING WIND UP???? IF YOU WANNA BE ****ING USEFUL GET ME A ****ING CAT!" Thankfully I keep it all inside but its like swallowing your sick... And to make this one worse it is on my ****ing 47th birthday .... OF ALL THE BASTARD LUCK I really really really really hate NLD day...am I the only one?
You could have been talking about me there,i'm exactly the same,what makes it worse for me ,is i'm surounded by Gooners, daughter.nephew niece,and sister-in-law
hahahahahahaha do you mind if I use this for my signature? absolute classic RCL!! I'm the same though. and I always watch it with arsenal fans which makes it worse! After the **** i've had from them this season, I'd love to see us beat them. The excuses will be in full flow! However, I would take a draw right now.
"but losing makes me wanna buy a cat to kick." Russian Hotspur used to have such a cat. Who used to attack him.
I'm not as bothered by the FA tie since I figure it may be to our advantage, and almost certainly is to Arsenal's advantage, to lose. Besides, I enjoy the buildup to big games. It's the games themselves that take years off my life. I felt sublimely confident until about two hours before the Man U game, and then I transformed myself into a miserable, superstitious wreck watching from behind the couch. I went outside after Ade scored and stayed there till halftime, to try to elude the "give one back" syndrome we've been suffering from. And then, of course, I was kicking myself for not hightailing it out of there right after Eiriksen scored.
Playing and beating Arsenal is, for me, an orgasmic experience. Can you get that into your minds? Orgasmic, I said. Invariably, I require emergency sack-surgery following a NLD win over Arsenal. When we beat them 5 v 1, not so long ago, surgeons battled bravely to save my poor love-eggs, which had turned blue and were in real danger of dropping off. They did a good job, but the fear is always with me that I will require their dedicated services again, very soon. I'm booked in to the local nut-sack clinic Saturday evening, as a precaution.
I know what you mean RCL. I find it so hard to watch and it stresses me out that sometimes for me it's better not to watch and just check the score every 5 minutes. I care way too much that's my problem. It's worse if we go a goal up as then we have something to lose. I end up wandering out of the room trying to make myself busy so the time goes faster. Although it never seems to!
Those remarks took me back to the Highbury days.Whether we'd won,lost or drawn,that bloody place always made me feel physically sick afterward.Never happened anywhere else,although I once had a blinding headache after watching Spurs draw at Fulham one year.Lost my sight on the train home from Liverpool Street.Got off at Lower Edmonton and somehow found my way to North Middlesex Hospital in Edmonton but my vision returned as I staggered through the gates!!!!! Never been to the Emirates.I refuse to take my passport!
I'm feeling sick about the game already,i will probaby watch it,but if we go behind,the ,telly will go off straight away
I know what you mean tots I do the same. I should have more confidence in the team but I feel me watching means we won't score!
Always when I start to watch one of our players will do something stupid or unbelievably dumb and the game will be gone (Ade couple of seasons back comes to mind!). My daughter, who god bless her is starting to understand what it is all about, knows not to disturb me if i'm watching.
