Absolutely. No woman has had an effect on my like my lady. I've been married too. My Ex missus doesn't come close. We're lucky fellas mate
I hope you understand my comment ref you growing and smoking was purely light hearted mate, I know there's a lot more to you than that. I don't know you obviously but from what I can gauge off here you're a cast iron type of bloke. I've been in some dark places myself mentally and otherwise, I'm on prescription drugs permanently now to subside anxiety, which has many direct links to depression and is often treated similarly. Not enough attention is given to mental health by our government, it's massively under researched and because the human brain is so complex, there's not going to be a 'cure for everybody' so they decide to sweep it under the carpet instead.
I'll tell you what lad, when my Janie died the lads on here told me not to worry as someone else would come along. Of course, at the time I didn't believe them but they were right.
It's hard to take in reassurance in those situations, bad enough for anyone but more so when you have mental health issue that inevitably trigger at the first sign of tragedy. Well done for riding the **** storm in your head fella. I bet that was one of the most difficult times in your life and you've seen war. Glad you made it through the other side as you're a top bloke Billy.
I know you were being light hearted fella, no problem, you're another top bloke. I remember my first Anxiety attack, I thought I was going to die, fortunately I don't get them often, only in the back of cars I feel it building these days, but it rules my ladies life unfortunately. The government are a million miles from sorting it. The scary thing is how ignorant and uneducated GPs are on the subject.
I got to a stage where I was wishing for an attack to happen, instead my entire life was just at constant boiling point, like I was ready to explode at any minute and tip over the edge. It's like paranoia. Apparently, there's upsides to it, some research has suggested it makes for a better driver, and obviously you get to see more of the day being a complete insomniac! The gym has helped me a lot, but I still need meds to get by, especially when I'm flying to Eastern European countries on business with Suicide Airways. GP's are awful nowaday, I used to like visiting the doctor as a kid, I bet the current breed don't have a drawer full of lollies and squirt medicine in your mouth with a water pistol.
You'd be surprised mate, they have a MASSIVE scouting network. I've only ever played one FM and it was the 2010 version - my scouts on there identified Xherdan Shaqiri, Alexis Sanchez and Romelu Lukaku as potential stars. This was back when we could probably have gotten all three for a couple million in real life. Tell you what, I ****ing wish SAFC had used FM!
Genuinely delighted to hear that. Doesn't take anything away from you and Janie. Just means you're looking to make life as it is now a little more bearable on the bad days and enjoyable on the good ones.
How are your anti anxiety meds? My lady is on the wrong meds thanks to her dodgy GP so her meds are getting tweaked soon (to actual anti-anxiety meds) but she has to be weaned off the tram with anti-side effect drugs first.
I was put on a course of antidepressants and valium which made me probably 100 times worse for two weeks, then things got better, then worse again. After that the Doc added Propranalol Beta Blockers to my meds and I just stopped with the others on my own accord and ever since I've just been on the blockers. They made me very lethargic for a few weeks but after that my day-to-day life started improving, it's hard for me to do endurance training or stuff like Insanity HIIT, so I've got to watch what I eat because it's twice as hard for me to get the calories off again. Apart from that, not a sniff of a panic attack for 3 years, no sign of fight or flight mode either, just relaxed constantly. When I'm on the pads or sparring at the gym I can get a bit of adrenaline pumping but nothing like I used to. Tried coming off the Beta Blockers for a week a while ago and felt my mind starting to wander again so got straight back on them, GP reckons I'll be on them for 10 years minimum. Tramadol is ****ing class by the way, as a one off good nighter. Dropped one with an American painkiller called Tylex once and slept for about 20 hours.
I'm on propranilol too mate, keppra for the eplilepsy, zopiclone to help me sleep. Have been on all sorts in the past. Tamazapam, diazapam, fluoxitine, trams, all sorts really. Once had a good drink & took some zopiclone, slept for two days, just couldn't get out of bed, was just dead to the world.
Do the Beta blockers make you gain weight as a side effect? That's what my lady will be going on, if they can deliver what they have for you they'll change her life. She's only taking enough of her tram at the moment to keep the withdrawals at bay and as a PRN for her anxiety, instead of taking set doses any more. So I'm taking her excess! I tell you what mate, when It's 1am and I'm still bouncing off the walls they're a gift from heaven.
