Loner Scared Winner Loner because I don’t surround myself in big groups of people. I’m fine and even prefer doing a lot of things by myself. Holidays etc. I have something that goes on in my brain which tells me not to be a burden on people and it keeps me from getting close to pretty much everyone and when I do things by myself, I can’t get in the way of anyone. Scared because that’s what I am a lot of the time, now. Since I lost all of my older family, I regularly have moments of panic about ‘what if something goes wrong, who’s there to catch me or support me’, I’m fairly comfortable in life but I don’t think that matters. It’s always there ‘what if there comes a time where I’ve spent all my money and don’t have anything, I’d be ****ed’. I can’t switch that off. I do recognise it’s probably just a normal thought for someone in my position. Winner because fortunately that’s what I am. I’ve got something inside me which keeps pushing to make me do well in whatever I’m doing. Work, Sport and even daft things like going after women. I always seem to succeed and to make things work in my favour.
