Go for a run Matth.
It's not difficult to see why you're a mess pal, you take dogs abuse non stop online, you open yourself up to ridicule every day.
We can all see your videos, who is your target audience? Kids shouldn't be watching it, grown adults will only take the piss, there's never anything constructive in the videos only foul-mouthed rants, they're embarrassing and that's how you're putting a big target on your chest.
If you tell somebody enough times they're a piece of ****, eventually they believe that, you can pretend that you're bulletproof but it's obviously getting through, the abuse you take from your so called demographic.
If I was you, I'd break it down into bite sized chunks. Do you wanna be an internet laughing stock forever or can you use that to help change your life around? I'd probably look at setting myself a target (publicly) of not swearing in my next video. Bite sized chunks.
Carry on what you're doing and you'll carry on taking **** from all angles. You'll land yourself in hot water sooner or later given how uncontrollable and ridiculous some of your rants are.
Time to change what you do pal.
A lot of sense there @Matth_2014

