Matthew, if you need to take time, take time. Take a break from videos or whatever else you need. Don't let people pressure you into things you don't want to do and don't feel the need to have your videos live up to anyone's expectations. I know I often join in the teasing here, and it's meant in good taste because you can be a good sport. If things get a little toxic here take a break and return fully rested and recharged when you feel able and don't take anything people say (including me) personally. Noone here knows you and their opinions and comments should be taken with that in mind. You don't owe anyone on here anything. You just owe looking after yourself first and foremost. . Do what you need to do for you.